Am I there or am I not.......!!?!!

Am I there or am I not
I don't know just giving it a thought.

The world looks so good
But it's people sour my mood.
They say I need to change
I am not sure upto what range.
They all seem to be on a wild goose chase
Heart filled with frustration and rage.
Running to seek happiness
Whatever they get is less.
No time to relax
Wandering to find the max.
I have to join this crowd
So that dear ones can feel proud.
Am I there or am I not
I don't know just giving it a thought.

People have forgotten joys 'n' sorrows
Busy in selling Todays 'n' buying Tomorrows.
Emotions are replaced by emoticons
Life sucks but they still move on.
Success is counted in figures 'n' facts
Nobody cares how the other person reacts.
"It's survival of the fittest", they say
"Let me be oblivious", I pray.

I still like to see the sunrise
I still love the chocolates in every size.
I still smile when a child laughs
I still gaze at the moon even if it's half.
I still feel proud in my friend's success
Even if he is miles away to access.
Grandma's lullabies are still melodious to my ears
Though I have heard them years after years.
My heart still beat with other's pain
I still can't figure out how other's loss is our gain.

"Stop being an emotional fool", I tell myself everyday
I need to tame my outbursts in any possible way.

Everything is blurred 'n' I am transfixed here
I guess I miss the trait to be up there.
Am I fine with it or am I not
The only thing I know is
I am Lost ...!!!