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Below is a creation I read somewhere and deeply touched with the words.....just wanted to share here before I restart my own posts!!
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She has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She appears So Strong On The Outside,
But on The Inside Her World Is Spinning Upside Down.
She is Smiling And Standing Tall to The Outer World,
She is Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.

She Appears So Happy to Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not to Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
She has Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
She has Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
1 Touch, & She'll Flinch
1 Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
1 Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down

She Trusts Noone, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her to Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes Noone, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep to Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong

I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...
Is Me.

Friends 'n' Salads

Delicious, raw, colorful,tossed up together but each retaining it's own natural flavor.........Sometimes sweet,sometimes salty,sometimes tangy,sometimes chopped together & somtimes each one of them easily distinguishable.
Moreover, they are good for health..........helps in cleaning by draining out the unwanted in U.
Doctors recommend them !!! :)
Salads??? Nooooooooo .......m talking abt FRIENDS.
A necessity to keep urself healthy, isnt it ??
So just prepare a good salad for urself & keep adding new flavors to it !!
It will get more and more tasty. Believe me........( I tried it. )

Am I there or am I not.......!!?!!

Am I there or am I not
I don't know just giving it a thought.

The world looks so good
But it's people sour my mood.
They say I need to change
I am not sure upto what range.
They all seem to be on a wild goose chase
Heart filled with frustration and rage.
Running to seek happiness
Whatever they get is less.
No time to relax
Wandering to find the max.
I have to join this crowd
So that dear ones can feel proud.
Am I there or am I not
I don't know just giving it a thought.

People have forgotten joys 'n' sorrows
Busy in selling Todays 'n' buying Tomorrows.
Emotions are replaced by emoticons
Life sucks but they still move on.
Success is counted in figures 'n' facts
Nobody cares how the other person reacts.
"It's survival of the fittest", they say
"Let me be oblivious", I pray.

I still like to see the sunrise
I still love the chocolates in every size.
I still smile when a child laughs
I still gaze at the moon even if it's half.
I still feel proud in my friend's success
Even if he is miles away to access.
Grandma's lullabies are still melodious to my ears
Though I have heard them years after years.
My heart still beat with other's pain
I still can't figure out how other's loss is our gain.

"Stop being an emotional fool", I tell myself everyday
I need to tame my outbursts in any possible way.

Everything is blurred 'n' I am transfixed here
I guess I miss the trait to be up there.
Am I fine with it or am I not
The only thing I know is
I am Lost ...!!!

It's an alien world.......!!!!

31st Aug,08

I was getting bored.I stopped gazing at the bunch of my colleagues howling in the swimming pool.
'Oh my God!When will we leave?',I sighed.
I turned my eyes towards the sea again.
I don't know why,everytime I look at the sea,I am amazed by its vastness.
It seems so powerful.
Anyways,I asked my friends to go to the nearby antique shop.We thought of passing some time by wandering there.I think even the shop owner knew why we came.He asked us to take our time to see the stuff.
The objects displayed were really authentic and beautiful.I just started inquiring about the things there.
"European tourists like these things and pay a handsome price as well", the owner said.
I just nodded.
"Even I am an outsider.I don't belong to Kerala",he continued.
"Then where are you from?",I asked out of curiosity.
"Kashmir".
"I am from Himachal",I replied instantly with a broad smile.
"How you came to Trivandrum,almost to the southern tip of India....?".
I couldn't resist myself asking further.
"I had to elope from Kashmir.My brother was killed by Indian army.Even I was sent to prison twice.They used to beat me whole night."
"My father also died and I was the only bread earner.I was very good in Mathematcs and Physics".
I could see a little twinkle in his eyes when he said that.
"But I had to leave my studies in between and came to Trivandrum in 1992 to assist my uncle in his antique business."
He paused for a few seconds and said ,"It has been a long time,but I don't like staying here.I even got some offers to go to Europe but I refused.My home is in Kashmir.I want to go back there.My mother is waiting for me."

"I have decided that after some years I will shift back to Kashmir.I am praying to God daily that hopefully I can return back home soon."
I heard what he was saying but I could listen to the mixed emotion of hope and pain that his eyes were trying to tell.
I didn't know what to say so I turned and started looking around the shop vaguely.
"Shall we go now?",asked my friend.
"Yes ,sure".
Before leaving,I looked at the shop owner and said,"I will pray for you."
"Thanks and please keep praying",he said with a smile.
"How many others might be hymning the same prayer...!!",I thought.
It was 6.30 in the evening when we boarded the boat to return from the island.I saw the resort slowly and slowly moving away from us.
Then I looked at the sky filled with the chirping of birds returning back to their nests.............

Entangled

Hi


This is something new to me...................

As the Phoenix reborns from its ashes.......I am also trying to recollect myself......

Just wanna see if this interaction with the world influences my self rediscovery in any way.......